What is WRONG with people?!

So sick of people-NO- one specific person- interfering!
For the love of Pete! Why can't some people just live their OWN lives and stay out of everyone elses? Ya know?!
Life is definately full of trials and everyone has their own. But I will NEVER understand why your own lifes ordeals cannot be enough to sustain you. Why? why ?why ?! would anyone CHOOSE to get involved where they are not a.) wanted b.)needed or c.) ASKED to be involved???
Inserting yourself into someone elses life after you've been asked and then told to stay out is a total invasion of privacy.
Only a sick, twisted, person would choose to invade someone's life and try to make it a living hell .
I say good things come to those who wait and karma comes back to those who are evil.

Life... or just something like it...

And the beat goes on...

I don't even know what to say anymore...

Our family has been on such a rollercoaster for the past two years.

Before we can even begin to accept a loss there's another one.

Just since October , we have lost seven to the Angels.

One more was added yesterday, August 23, 2009.

Doris Jean Honnoll ~81~ went on to be an Angel at 11:45 a.m.

It was a sudden and great loss to our family.

Life?... No, just something like it...

Life or something like it....having a bad morning...

A crap shoot

In this thing we call life, we ALL have our own crosses to bear, skeletons in our closets
and sometimes just the weight of the world.
They say everthing happens for a reason~ If so, I'd sure as hell like some answers!
Not everyone deals with the pressures in their lives the same way.
We'd all like to 'just quit' sometimes.
That doesn't seem to be the right answer though.
I don't have the answers, but I am not a 'quitter'.
Life is what we make it?
NO.
Life is what it is...
We may choose our own paths, jobs, homes etc.
But there is no choosing or changing what life hands us.
I've often referred to the things my family has gone through as
'the hand we've been dealt'
And that we will just play that hand and hope for a better one later-
It used to make sense to me-but now....
It just feels like a crap shoot

May 2, 1942 ~ June 13, 2009

Another Angel has gained his wings; this time, being my father-in-law, Gearl Greggs.

"Pops" was well known for being quite the comedian.

He is missed and our hearts are breaking not only for his loss; but the nagging jealousy that he is now with our Angel -Elijah Call.

We miss you "Pops" and we will not forget...

A broken heart :(

They say a broken heart will mend.
Will it?
Our latest experience tells us that a broken heart can kill you(or just make you think so).
My hard working , never stopping, hard headed husband was rushed to the E.R. last week with chest pains, shortness of breath; i.e. heart attack symptoms. After two visits to the E.R., a couple of nitro tabs and a trip to the heart cath lab, it was shown that he is suffering from a broken heart. Not the kind they can fix. The kind you get when you grieve. He was told that his symptoms were very real and that a grieving person has added stress to their life and that CAN cause an actual heart attack.
IMAGINE THAT!
They told him to try and relax and to lower the stress factors in his life. HA!
How exactly do you propose he stop grieving?
Men especially, are guilty of holding things in or explosively letting them go.
Grief cannot be controlled.
Just remember the next time someone tells you you can't die from a broken heart-they're wrong!

Life?...Or just something like it...

Losing The Mississippi Kid

Just over 2 weeks since the Mississippi Kid festival and the world has lost another shining star,

May 6, 2009 Ean Evans passed away. He was just 48 years old.

Leaving behind a wife, 2 daughters a son-in-law and a beautiful granddaughter.

Lynyrd Skynyrd will not be the same.

The band has suffered many losses over the years , but this has been a shock to all.

Ean helped found the band Evans Capps and has been involved in personally or helped to promote many others. He was always looking to help someone else.

On the night of the Mississippi Kid festival He and Capps signed a new record contract in the camper where Ean was waiting his turn on stage.

Before the night was over, as sick as he was, he played. He played with members of Lynyrd Skynyrd, Bo Bice, Capps, and a few others. Ean's loving spirit was thrown out into the crowd. It was electrifying!

The new EvansCapps c.d was released yesterday. What a victory for Ean!

www.mississippikidfestival.com/

http://www.thesilvertongueonline.com/?tag=ean-evans

These sites feature some of the brightest moments and some of the saddest, but both tell a beautiful story of a very kind soul.

This FAMILY -never mind he was famous- needs your prayers.

Send cards and letters of encouragement to:

P.O.BOX 5551

Columbus, Ms. 39704

Love and prayers to the Evans family

Don't like this chapter? - Neither do we!

Call me crazy, I don't care.
Obsessed I am.
What others think, I don't really give a damn!

Life is not simple. It is very complex.
Someone once said; When you lose a parent you lose your past
When you lose a spouse you lose your present
and when you lose a child you lose your future....

As for me it's two out of three. I've lost part of my past , as I'm sure many of you have, but I've also lost part of my future.

In the legendary words of MEATLOAF , "Two out of three aint bad" but I disagree.
You cannot change the way you feel about loss or even the way you'd like to feel- it's just something that is. Like death itself ,these feelings are permanent. If feeling constant sorrow, anger, and a powerless sense of loss offends anyone, they haven't experienced loss of someone who really mattered.
The inability to help yourself or be of any use to others is overpowering.
Being strong is over rated. Try comforting your own child who has lost their only child, while 'trying to keep it together' see if that works for you.
Feeling sorry for myself and my family? Hell yes! It's only been a little while...seems like yesterday.
Don't like it? I hate it. This is what our lives have become. A new chapter that no-one really wants to read.

I will always miss you Daddy and Elijah....

Benefit Concert

A benefit concert for Ean Evans, guitarist for legendary band Lynyrd Skynyrd is being held at Columbus Fairgrounds in Columbus, Ms. on Sunday, April 19,2009.
Ean has been undergoing treatment for cancer over the last several months.
A $10 donation will go to support his treatments and family during this awful time.
You will be entertained by some of the alltime greatest Southern rockers such as:
Molly Hatchet, The Marshall Tucker band, Vanzant, members of 3Doors Down, and various other artists.
Come out and show your support. Ean is counting on your prayers...


Will update with pics later....

Easter

Thanks Doc... I bought my grandson a GRAVE cover for Easter... What did you get yours?!

Grammie loves and misses you always, Beans...........

What is the meaning of life?

Recently , I was asked "What is the meaning of life?"

I didn't know how to answer.
I began with the standard answer of 'Pleasing God.'
When pinned down on 'How do you know?' , it seemed really flimsy.
I know I was raised to believe in God. I know I do believe in Heaven and Hell. I know that the theory of evolution is a crock. The Bible at least gives you a feasible idea of how everything started. The idea of an all powerful being who created the world and everything in it ( if you will read), makes much more sense than something crashing and exploding in the universe causing one celled beings to evolve into who we are today.
The best analogy I can come up with is : If you live your life for God and in the end there is nothing after death, what harm have you caused? But if you choose to live for you, and in the end Heaven and Hell are real; then you are gonna be in trouble!
Now, that being said I also had to add that in light of events in my life over the last 2 1/2 years it is really hard to have any faith. I cannot bring myself to trust God or anything else for that mater. I was always taught ask and it shall be given; if you have faith like the grain of a mustard seed , you can move mountains... also , that just because you ask and don't receive doesn't mean you weren't heard. Only that it was not right for you.
Mostly, this has always made sense to me. No ? asked.
But as for now, nothing makes sense anymore...
The life I know is pain and regret for the un natural loss of loved ones, for the insanity that some are allowed to be parents who don't deserve to be, and the fact that those who are worthy are not allowed to be. For the idea that an abortion can be used as birth control, especially when so many want to be parents.
For the epic failure of the United States in the choice of a leader.
I have to say...
Don't ask me for the meaning of life, I'm just living something like it.

100 DAYS...

~ A hundred days without you...

Yet , it seems

like only a minute

Life is too long

Without you in it... ~

As the hours trail by

The wonder of you fills my eyes

Fills my senses

And leaves me empty all the same

It feels as though life can never be good again

Everywhere we look

There seems to be nothing but pain

They say...This is life

I say :

No, just something like it...

I miss you, Beans

Love,

Grammie

Please help us spread the word about DiGeorge syndrome/22q11 deletion.
If more physicians were aware, the possibilities of getting proper, lifesaving care, would be so much greater, no matter where you live.
In our case, the lack of knowledge by physicians in every area of this syndrome cost more than we were prepared to pay- his life.
My understanding is that in the northern U.S. and in other countries the doctors are schooled in genetics, if only to have the number to connect you to the right doctor for the right part of the syndrome. In Mississippi, however, there proves to be an astounding amount of ignorance on their part. An ignorance that the physicians we encountered in Mississippi were all too proud to flaunt. Information WE found through the internet (that would have saved Elijah) was brushed aside as if we were the ignorant ones. One pediatrician in Columbus, Mississippi's God complex stood in the way of Elijah getting the help that he needed!
KNOWLEDGE IS KEY!
DiGeorge does NOT have to be FATAL!
Through much research and corresponding on the internet, we are finding that so many are living pretty full lives with DiGeorge Syndrome and 22q11.
Would someone please explain this to the medical profession?
More than anything I want to start a Foundation For DiGeorge Syndrome just so the information is all available, far and wide...to be able to help others that are just learning that their child/grandchild will be living with lifelong health issues ...to be able to tell them, where ever they live, who the endocrinologists , geneticists, cardiologists, neurologists and primarily, the best pediatrician - one who is familiar with the NEEDS of these children- and every other NECESSARY doctors are in their areas . And there SHOULD be a team of these doctors within a fifty mile radius of every big city-Not just in the north.
Please help us spread the word...

http:/www.elijahslegacy.blogspot.com/

Spring Break 2009

Spring Break 2009 at Panama City Beach was beautiful!
The sand and surf and weather were just right. St.Patrick's day there proved to be more than interesting! The teens are always good for a bunch of laughs. As we were leaving Ripley's museum Tuesday night, two boys in speedos came walking or should I say dancing, jumping and sashaying down the sidewalk... they were hilarious, not hurting anyone, just being silly. They got our attention! I hope they faired well the rest of the week.

On the other hand, teens and young adults are pretty reckless.
P-A-R-T-Y
seems to be the only word in their lives.
On march 18,2009 a 21 year old boy was found face down in the grass by a fancy hotel near the county pier as we were arriving for the day on the beach. It was traggic. It appears he drank himself to death. However, it did not lower the partying moods of the other spring breakers- they continued to party as if they were invincible!
Look people- just because you leave home, don't leave your brains behind.
Get a grip, know when to stop and NEVER party alone. Being young is great and it won't last forever, I understand wanting to live it up, but please do it with some common sense!
Parents: KNOW where your kids are. You DON'T want that phone call... who would the responsibility fall on?
Think about it.

Some say that's just life...I say no, just something like it.

Life is too long without you...

~I wondered how long this could last. Maybe someday, years from now - if the pain would just decrease to the point where I could bear it - I would be able to look back on those few short months that would always be the best of my life. And, if it were possible for the pain to soften enough to allow me to do that, I was sure that I would feel grateful for as much time as he'd given me. -More than I'd deserved. Maybe someday I'd be able to see it that way.~

FROM:New Moon(sequel to TWILIGHT)

Life is definately too long when someone you love can never return.

Living each day in a fog...

They say "That's life". I say, Just something like it....

Jeff Dunham

We were given tickets to see Jeff Dunham for Christmas. The show was in Tupelo on Feb. 18.

It was sooo good! If you have not seen or heard of him you NEED to go to the video store!

He is an awsome vintriloquist. My husband and I laughed for the first time in months... although our troubles were hanging around the edges of the night, we quite enjoyed ourselves.

Thank you to my son and daughter-in-law for the wonderful gift! We needed it.

UPDATE

Renee' came through the surgery and is doing well!
I've talked with her a few times, I feel so awful for her and hurt that I cannot be there, but, she seems to be handling it well.
On another note, my friend and colleague, Marilynn, underwent a double mastectomy ,also, on Thursday. She is doing great.
It's all around us...what will be next?
I'll tell you, my youngest daughter who is 16, called yesterday while she was out , to tell me her friend's mother had committed suicide!
The bad times just keep rolling.....

Today is Valentine's ...
Call me a scrooge if you want, I hate Valentine's day.
I think it's a big, commercial waste of money and energy.

Guess I'm still in a bad mood...

Although I hate Valentine's , I can't help but be depressed today because I miss my Grandson, 10-18-07 to 11-29-08
and my sweet daddy , who I lost on 11-04-2006.
They are together now, and I can hardly bear being without them.
Our family has had a year from hell and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. (If you've read my other blog, you know about the life and loss of my Angel - Elijah) Since October of 08' we've lost 5 friends and family members. This week, my younger sister will go through surgery to remove her colon and lower intestines. She is only 36. Due to missing so much work this past year, I cannot be in Texas with her. But my prayers and mom will be.

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Funny! In the news tonight: Columbus,Ms.
Deer jumps through window of Ryan's restaurant and causes havock!

Life as I see it...