Call me crazy, I don't care.
Obsessed I am.
What others think, I don't really give a damn!
Life is not simple. It is very complex.
Someone once said; When you lose a parent you lose your past
When you lose a spouse you lose your present
and when you lose a child you lose your future....
As for me it's two out of three. I've lost part of my past , as I'm sure many of you have, but I've also lost part of my future.
In the legendary words of MEATLOAF , "Two out of three aint bad" but I disagree.
You cannot change the way you feel about loss or even the way you'd like to feel- it's just something that is. Like death itself ,these feelings are permanent. If feeling constant sorrow, anger, and a powerless sense of loss offends anyone, they haven't experienced loss of someone who really mattered.
The inability to help yourself or be of any use to others is overpowering.
Being strong is over rated. Try comforting your own child who has lost their only child, while 'trying to keep it together' see if that works for you.
Feeling sorry for myself and my family? Hell yes! It's only been a little while...seems like yesterday.
Don't like it? I hate it. This is what our lives have become. A new chapter that no-one really wants to read.
I will always miss you Daddy and Elijah....
